im so much happier alone these days but it pisses me off when guys try to use me as a rebound. i dont really care because at the end of the day its not like im gonna get with you or even like you but stop fucking running to me everytime your girlfriend dumps you.

i’m really clinging on to reality by the skin of my teeth right now

confused about where i am in my life right now. i feel so my healthier right now in alot of ways but yet my dreams are more messed up then ever and i just wake up thinking again. i want to forget everything right now, i really need to move on. so bad. im so alone and i miss you but i’m getting better in so many ways now that i am by myself but i sort of just feel like im masking it not actually fixing it but as you said yourself i have no problems i just make them for myself, no one really cares and i just need to remember everything you said to me but in a positive light. i’m going to get better and healthier and confident and motivated, because you dont believe that i could. you will always hate me because you think i never loved you or atleast i never showed my love but i will never love anyone the same and i dont even know if im ever going to feel comfortable with someone else, you thought you loved me more but you set out purposefully to hurt me and people dont do that to people they love. i’m going to miss you but i’m going to do so much better without you. well thats the plan. i hope you are happy